Backwards
I went backwards. First, I experienced what it was like to have what I wanted. My deepest desire. It came like thunder. The highs were as incredible as the lows. Pushing all my buttons and bringing my blind spots to the surface. The undeniable feeling of finding a long-lost home in someone. The connection. The warmth. The oneness. I wasn’t ready to handle it. Back then, I was so lost and distracted that I didn’t know that was what I wanted. It felt like punishment, but it was a lesson, and a test, the most challenging one. The universe had me experience the sensation to reveal what I lacked, in order to keep the very thing my heart and soul craved all my life. The only thing that matters in a true sense. My first true love. In the process of shedding unwanted layers, coming home to myself, and surrendering to the flow, I learned to prepare myself, creating space for newness and strength to nurture and care for love.
