I’m feeling at ease, even more relaxed, because what’s meant for me won’t pass me by. I used to say that blindly, but now I know it. Woke up too late and missed a thing? I was supposed to miss it. Took the wrong turn and ended up somewhere else? That was the destination for now. Felt too tired at someplace fun? I was asked to rest. Communication unusually slow and quiet? It’s making space for something new. A friend didn’t follow through on their word? It’s not the time. What’s meant for me comes to me effortlessly. Without me trying. Without me saying a word. If I have to force it, I don’t want it. It’s all good.
Thank you for singing for me. Thank you for taking me to the rocks so I remember where I am from. Thank you for making me jewelry. Thank you for seeing the light in me and for seeing beyond what I saw in myself. Thank you for telling me that. Thank you for trusting me despite how little we know about each other in earthly ways. Thank you for sharing your wisdom with me. Now go home to the rocks where you will bask in peace, love, and music. I hope you get to relax. I hope they see you for who you are. I hope you sing again.
You fan my fire. You have access to my love and passion. You flaunt me in front of your peers. You benefit and feed off my energy. You love the idea of me. But when it counts, you bail out. You run away. You don’t have the capacity to match my depth. I find myself frustrated and unfulfilled. A relationship with you is transactional. I look back. It has always been that way.
I recently met an author while traveling. He wanted to share his book with me, so I asked him to email the document. He did, but the email bounced back. This got me thinking. Oh wait, I actually haven’t received an email on this account since earlier this year. I’ve met quite a few new people since the beginning of this year. Every time they showed interest in staying in touch, I directed them to my website and to contact me via the email listed there because I don’t always want to give out my phone number. I just realized I never heard from any of them. Maybe the communication was blocked for a reason. Maybe it protected me from something. Maybe they never reached out. Either way, it is inconvenient to have a nonfunctional email. So I spent a chunk of time fixing the problem.
All this is to say, my email is working properly now, and I can receive and send messages just fine. I’ve already tested it with a few tech friends. You will find my email address at the bottom of the footer and on my “About me” page. It’s mind-blowing to me how convoluted custom-domain email still is, but we will save that topic for another time. So yeah, if you’ve emailed me recently and didn’t get a reply, please try again.
