Public display of my private journal
I wish I weren’t feeling this way towards you. But you and I have fallen apart. Long long time ago. I am going to feel what I feel. I am going to allow myself to feel the way I do.
Big vast ocean Slow dancing waves Washing away all the worries Embracing me with love Love so big that’s out of this world For the little child inside of me
I’m sitting in the shallow water Looking straight into the orange sunset Glitters on the surface The water is warm The whole place is warm I am warm Because the sun is still out there
I am a traveling guide A teacher at times A muse to some Mirroring you wherever I go Things you love and hate about yourself
I am a soul of energy Led by intuition and fire And above all I am a student of life
I love the nighttime. I am a night owl. The darkness inspires me. It lights the fire in me. Sometimes, I wake up early by accident. Totally against my desire. I wish I were a morning person. Because the sun is too precious to miss.
I look forward to seeing the black cat every time I go out for a walk. Sometimes he’s outside, sometimes he is not. That is just how it is. We’ve become very close over the past few months. I’ve slowly gained his love and trust. We have a mutual understanding of each other. It’s the first time I’ve ever felt this way toward a nonhuman. Souls are souls after all. I’m in love with his sweet soul.
Photo by my mom