I lost a piece of myself every time you left
I had no idea when I would see you next
You left me hanging and kept me in the dark
The loss, the pain, the void, the yearning
It was all too excruciating
I couldn’t bear it
Nobody had made me feel this way
We were home to each other
Then the next moment, we were strangers
We never got a chance to get close
Our story didn’t even begin
Every time we connected, we started all over again
A few years passed
I read the lyrics of the song you liked
Something clicked inside of me
The way you made me feel
The loss, the pain, the void, the yearning
It was how you felt growing up
With those who were supposed to love and care for you
You taught me it was okay to feel
You showed me what it was like to miss someone
I didn’t know I could miss another person
But you are not just another person
You are me
And I am you
every summer
i take two trains
to get to her
along the coast
watching the shimmers
on the calm waves
soon
i will get to her
to her warmth
her cooking
her energy
her love
her house is messy
the floors greasy
with the oil and steam
from her constant cooking
her constant love
heavy love
her house
always open
women from the neighborhood
loud tv
snacks on the table
in the morning
i’m on her bicycle
rusty with a pink cover
she wears the same hat
she rides to the same places
peaceful winds on my cheeks
on my tanned legs
i smell her
Warm summer night
Sitting on the balcony floor
Facing me closely
On the faded blue beach blanket
Two wine glasses
Two mezcal shots
One water pipe
Warm string lights
Illuminating the texture of your curly hair
Your eyes
So wide and open
Deep like the ocean
Sad like the saddest movie I’ve ever seen
Your eyes on my eyes
No blinking so far
Piercing through my soul
I feel seen for the first time
Big vast ocean
Slow dancing waves
Washing away all the worries
Embracing me with love
Love so big that’s out of this world
For the little child inside of me
I’m sitting in the shallow water
Looking straight into the orange sunset
Glitters on the surface
The water is warm
The whole place is warm
I am warm
Because the sun is still out there
