Sharing my world & gift of connection
Warm summer night Sitting on the balcony floor Facing me closely On the faded blue beach blanket Two wine glasses Two mezcal shots One water pipe
Warm string lights Illuminating the texture of your curly hair Your eyes So wide and open Deep like the ocean Sad like the saddest movie I’ve ever seen
Your eyes on my eyes No blinking so far Piercing through my soul I feel seen for the first time
So I’ve been practicing a headstand for a while.
I got back into a regular practice of yoga around 2018 when I moved to a new neighborhood where I found a yoga studio I love. This is in Los Angeles.
I caught covid in late 2022. Then I came home to Japan in order to heal and recover from the serious decline in my health and well-being. I’d been away from my family for 3 years prior.
For the past 6 months, I’ve been practicing the headstand more intensively and intentionally than ever. And yesterday, with my knees bent (baby steps!), I was able to float both of my feet in the air for a few long seconds for the first time.
The headstand was always hard for me for two reasons. One, a lack of strength in my upper body. I’ve been training my upper body and core for this. Two, fear. I couldn’t kick the fear of vertical inversion. Everything about it was terrifying for me. It was psychological. The fear was limiting me, and I hated that.
Something happened to how I handled fear after a certain incident.
Recently, I spoke out against the untouchable masculine in my family. I say it casually, but this was monumental for me and my family, as he’s left immense emotional scars on me and others, for life.
This experience changed something in me. Something popped. I felt a level-up, and it feels fantastic.
Photo by Lauren W.
I wish I weren’t feeling this way towards you. But you and I have fallen apart. Long long time ago. I am going to feel what I feel. I am going to allow myself to feel the way I do.
Big vast ocean Slow dancing waves Washing away all the worries Embracing me with love Love so big that’s out of this world For the little child inside of me
I’m sitting in the shallow water Looking straight into the orange sunset Glitters on the surface The water is warm The whole place is warm I am warm Because the sun is still out there
I am a traveling guide A teacher at times A muse to some Mirroring you wherever I go Things you love and hate about yourself
I am a soul of energy Led by intuition and fire And above all I am a student of life
