Same lesson, different bodies
I’ve been having vivid dreams lately. They feel significant and foretelling, but I can’t remember the details. I’ve always been fascinated by dreams and have used them to understand my subconscious and those in my energetic field. Although the details of my recent dreams are blurry, they seem to reveal emotions I’ve suppressed. The theme keeps recurring in my dreams. I’m working on putting my needs first, before others. My long-standing habit needs to end, but it’s harder than I anticipated. I remember this moment clearly: a family member asked me for a favor. I told him I couldn’t do it at that moment, but I would do it later that day when I had more time. He got furious and called me incompetent. I was stunned by how abruptly it escalated. Since then, I’ve been walking on eggshells around him. It’s heartbreaking but also a relief to finally realize I was living with a narcissist. What’s scary is the same trait that pushed me to the edge also exists within me. I became aware of this through some very intense connections over the past few years. The lesson will keep coming back in different bodies and forms until we surrender and face it with love and courage. I’m glad I noticed the pattern. I am a keen observer. I’m hopeful I can overcome this habit.
