It’s wild how much I’ve grown just in the past few years, especially since 2021.
A friend recently said to me, “Fa, I don’t know anyone who’s done more work on themselves than you have internally and externally.” The old me would have been too dismissive to receive that statement. Now, I own it.
It’s true. I’ve done an unbelievable amount of work to update and elevate myself. All with intention. I carried and was projected so much fucking baggage and karma from the previous generations, family members, and many people I crossed paths with. Every time the universe threw me a challenge, I gave it all of myself and faced it head-on.
I want to recognize and celebrate this feeling. The ease and peace I feel without needing much. The kind of confidence that comes from tapping into authenticity. My boundaries are stronger than ever. The love I feel for myself and others is unmatched. I’m glowing from within.
I’m excited for what’s about to come. I have this inexplicable hunch that miracles will happen to me. And when they do, I won’t be surprised.
A girlfriend is planning to freeze her eggs. The topic got me thinking, do I want to do that? Do I want kids? As I decondition my learned and outdated beliefs, I'm learning what I want as a woman.
Today, I share a story about a hike I went on with a friend who overtalked. The discomfort I felt pushed me to kick the fear of setting boundaries. The result? Surprisingly pleasant.
I've always felt energetically connected to Marilyn Monroe. I often witness and experience in my dreams what it was like to be her in intimate, private moments. In this episode, I dive deeper into my connection to the woman she was.
In this candid episode, I talked about how the vibe shifted throughout the day. ICE protest. Tension in Los Angeles. A little car accident. Yet, I still felt protected, guided, and ultimately healed by the power of love and music by the end of the night.
I believe we, dyslexic people, are creators.
The universe intentionally made it difficult for us to learn from existing content so that we can create something new.
Traditional learning is hard for me.
A large amount of text is daunting and overwhelming for me to read and process, unless I have a personal association and resonance with the subject.
I rarely watch movies.
It takes up too much of my energy.
It’s almost impossible for me to sing along to songs.
I didn’t write the words.
I don’t like templates.
It’s annoying how I have to create pretty much everything from scratch.
I have a hard time remembering tangible details.
This painting of mine is a great example of how I associate people, places, and things with smells, textures, colors, lighting, and feelings.
I express my inner world through creative expressions.
I observe, listen, experience, and make mistakes in real life to earn lessons and knowledge.
I cross the line to know where it is.
I have my own way of seeing and learning.
I wish I could tell my 12-year-old self it’s okay to be unconventional.
In fact, it’s more than okay.
It’s awesome.
Marilyn
Ron Swanson
Aunt Polly
The Oracle
