Talk to Fa

i went to joshua tree on a whim i woke up hearing a voice in my head “go to joshua tree” and i said to myself out loud “i am going to joshua tree today”

this is how most of my trips happen

i was a bit daunted by the drive getting there i doubted if i was really going to enjoy it even if i knew i was going to

i set the destination to my favorite spot in the park it’d been 4 months since i last went there back in june

i got to the spot went inside the rocks immediately, felt at home at peace at ease i was in my element “i am happy” made me smile

i stayed there as long as my heart and soul needed me to when i was satisfied, i came out and explored the surroundings i then drove to the nearby trail and found a rock to sit on to enjoy the sunset i lay on the rock i carefully chose i sat i closed my eyes and opened my heart and my palms i saw a green heart in the direction of the setting sun i absorbed the energy from the rocks through all the touching surfaces on my body this is why i came here and this is why i will be back i felt empowered energized recharged

“i am home”

after the sunset, i drove west toward the remaining sunlight cruising slowly through the joshua trees it felt like they were sending me off on a good vibe sky turning from indigo to creamy orange it’s beautiful it always makes me tear up, the colors by the time i reached the exit, the sky was dark it was nighttime

the drive home felt quick i should do this more often.

nothing matters yet everything matters

everything means nothing yet everything means everything

it is what it is let it be what it is it just is.

it could actually be all simple?

I had an unexpected revelation while browsing the book section at a local Goodwill. Here’s a page from Ways of Seeing by John Berger.

#love

because i’ve made peace with my light and shadow because of the love i’ve worked to cultivate for myself because i have done the work most people run away from because of my inner knowing and trust to follow through with it

this, is earned.

#art

you cannot tolerate me because my light illuminates your shadow. i see right through BS and my authenticity intimidates you. i show up truthfully and wholeheartedly and give you my all – mind, body, and soul… just like you wanted. but you don’t know how to receive me as a whole because you are in denial of who you could be, hiding behind heavy layers of who you think you should be.

my soul has lived many, many lives my intuition is not random it is the accumulation of knowledge and experiences from my past and current lives

Or do you find comfort in associating yourself with those who give you a false sense of belonging, security, and strength?

#healing #ancestors

he loved and worshipped her but his vessel was too small to receive her as a whole

the grandeur of her love the brightness of her light the purity of her heart and soul

it was all too shiny too good to be true so he turned it into evil

if he only knew it was the most real thing he’d ever experienced

#love #poems

she tells me there was a man in her life a long time ago

she loved him with all her heart

but they couldn’t be together

this was before her marriage

the man and grandpa shared the same name

she spent the rest of her life with resentment and anger

and the resentment and anger infected everyone who came into her life and the lives she created

#dreams #ancestors